|Sunday, March 27th, 2005|
well what can I say about me. I wear my heart on my sleeve, which is prolly why it's been broken so many times. I don't have much of a heart left to break. I have low self esteem I think i'm ugly. I'm not a pig like most guys I don't care about getting laid or any action I just want to be loved. I'm not gay. Alot of people think i'm gay, I got a girlfriend, but I think she thinks i'm gay too. Worst line a girl has ever used to break an almost relationship was taken from "your so last summer" by taking back sunday it was the opening line. "don't let it go to your head boys like you are dime a dozen boys like you are a dime a dozen" and I felt bad about myself becuz I thought I was special and she didn't. Current Mood: good
|Saturday, March 26th, 2005|
well Last night was the best night of my life. I spent 12 hours with jessica. My girlfriend and I'm so glad I can call her that. it's weird I've never had a girlfriend and I have one now and she's amazing. Spring break is now and it's gonna be lonely cuz jessica is going to north carolina and i'm working here and being bored. and I can't wait to get back to school. I hate school but I like going to be around people. I'm feeling pretty happy and wish I could sleep for a week. Current Mood: thankful
|Monday, March 7th, 2005|
|Scared to death
I am Kinda scared to fuckin death right now. Cuz today my dad told me that I have to help him run the farm this spring and all I can think of is the fact that i'm not very responsible. The reason I have to help is becuz my grandpa has cancer again, and my grandpa usually does most of the stuff in the spring and now I have to help my dad. I don't want to fuckin do that cuz I'm not mature enough to do it. It's a good fuckin thing I wasn't planning on anything for spring break. Current Mood: stressed
|Sunday, March 6th, 2005|
|Sunday is the most boring day ever
well my weekend went well. friday and saturday had things going on. sunday boringiest day of my life. did nothing but just sat here trying not to be bored but I was bored as hell. hopefully I get to start going out on saturday nights. it's not that I can't my dad could careless what I do i just don't get invited anywhere or to do anything. Current Mood: blank
|Thursday, March 3rd, 2005|
so yesterday I was in a bad mood all day. untill I went to the game then I cheered up. but I still spaced out here and there. but the ride home was the funniest thing ever woulda been sweeter if awesome sarah colling and cute jessica would been there. cuz I definatly had a dance party with myself. I mean when the song "dancing with myself" comes on followed by "I'm walking on sunshine" you can't help but dance. Current Mood: calm
|Monday, February 28th, 2005|
|I love the bitches and hoes
If bought a hooker for a night. I wouldn't have sex with them. I think I'd take them out for dinner becuz they prolly don't get that often. and I mean they obviously like sex but a break is always nice. What happend to our morals. Seriously when a guy breaks up with his girlfriend becuz she won't have sex with him is horrible. I've never done it I've had chances to but I always turned them down cuz I want the first time to be special and with someone I love. Call me gay for that but I don't care well everyone thinks i'm gay so i'm used to it now, and kill me for it so what if I try to be a nice guy. Fuck everyone who thinks differently about sexual relationships. and Morals are hott or so i've heard. Current Mood: pissed off
|Saturday, February 26th, 2005|
Today was cool. Watched some sweet competitive cheer, and had a boner the whole time. got nut tapped 10 times, and sweat like a mother fucker. Dan and I are still upset about the break up of blink 182. I have a fuckin cold which I was almost over but my sister got one and gave that one to me and that just pisses me off like crazy. "I need oxygen and oral sex to the stage please."
"and some of those male chromosomes." Current Mood: discontent
|Sunday, February 20th, 2005|
|Confused and bored
I get asked to prom by the girl I wanted to ask so that was cool but I don't know if that's all I should want is a prom date or if that's all she wants too. I wanna do something with her but I dont' have the balls to ask her I mean I'm a pussy cuz she definatly asked me to prom so whatever. I'm bored as fuck. Current Mood: confused
|Sunday, February 6th, 2005|
|To the world this is all I have.
I'm starting to get better as far as being depressed. I have been depressed everyday of the past week. Today it wasn't as severe but yesterday was one of the worst. There was a time before about 2 years where I just wanted to die and I don't want to go back to that. The other day I went to target with a gift card that I had got my grandma 2 years ago that was found after she died at her house and well it was for 30 dollars. so I go to the service desk to check it and the lady says "A dollar ninety six" and I new my grandma was laughing saying "I got your ass didn't I" cuz she was sweet like that. I know I'm an ok guy and that I might even mean something to people but to myself I'm the worst person in the world and I hate myself cuz I'm my own worst enemy. Current Mood: depressed
|Tuesday, February 1st, 2005|
|society is a giant floppy dick. I wish I was like society.
Today was ok much different from yesterday. Yesterday blew I felt so unwanted and found out i'm failing geometry which is crap cuz that's the only class I work my ass off for. But today was different. I realized the secret to making out with anyone. I totally have my setup 2 candles in my room lit and dashboard confessional playing softly in the background low enough to where we can still have a conversation and if that doesn't work then i'll just play my guitar in the candlelight and at least get to make out with someone. well I'm totally bored right now. MIKE saw my little penis today I think he's intimidated by how small I am and he knows how cute it looks. Current Mood: satisfied
|Saturday, January 29th, 2005|
People creep me out sometimes. I think someone should start stalking me cuz that would be both creepy and sweet at the same time. I'm a very creepy person at times. But I'm immature and perverted all the time and I win I guess. well i'm gonna go so someone can comment on this and scare me. Current Mood: predatory
|Thursday, January 20th, 2005|
so I'm sitting here thinking to myself why am I so miserable when I'm in the company of myself. well that's just it I'm always in my own company and it's lonely and it sucks like shit. I took a piss in ben's bathroom today and it smelled like ass and a half. I played some music with nick and rusty which was fun becuz I hadn't done that in awhile. and I really want to see something naked. that or getting trashed so can not have to worry about anything for awhile. Current Mood: lonely
|Thursday, December 2nd, 2004|
I'm looking forward to 2weeks from night now. seeing how we go on xmas break on the 17 and that friday I'm just gonna be watching movies all day. that's why I love my schedule this year. amd well with christmas begining to near I'm still hoping for a Mesa/Boogie Triple Rectifier Head for xmas. It's $1800 which is why it's the only thing I'm asking for. so hopefully I will get it and laid? psh I don't care about getting laid. Well I'm off to change strings on my geetar.
|Saturday, November 20th, 2004|
Today was pretty boring I really didn't do much. I mostly just sat home and watched Michigan lose, and then I get on here and an anonymous comment on here which is kinda freaky. I had to get pick up my sister from Yale becuz my mom was going to bring her back and I had to go find her and the people she hangs out with over there are bad news. They are like druggies and stuff I was all ready to kick some ass and my sister showed up at my moms. well i'm not tired but I shall be going
|Thursday, November 18th, 2004|
wow it's been a while since I've been on here. Well things are rather crapppy my grandma's lung cancer has gotten worst. she is said to be on her last 24 hours of her life my mom is getting evicted from her apartment which shouldn't be happening it's a bunch of shit. I'm looking for a bass player so I can get a band together. things have been boring with out playing music. Current Mood: depressed
|Wednesday, September 8th, 2004|
|This one's for all the homies
man school is worse than ever people at my school they freak out if something is different. it's gay and then they make fun of a person who's different. People wonder why all the "scrubby" kids have all the new kids as friends becuz the "scrubby" kids are jerks like most the other people. anyway on a lighter note I gotta give a shout out to my homies Ramon y wolfgang y viper los muchachos es muy sexy.
|Friday, August 13th, 2004|
|sex sex sex
I don't see the big deal about sex. people want it so bad and can't get any of it. I don't really want it and I've had more oppurtunitys then some people. I mean if I found someone I actually cared about alot then yeah y not but other than that being emo makes it hard for one night stands so that's out of the picture. I like not being super horny and not wanting to get laid . I guess that's sorta a sexy trait. but now I'm a bored. Current Mood: bored
|Sunday, July 25th, 2004|
haven't been on lately. Been up to nothing much just haven't been in the mood to write. I want to find a bass player. there's one around me who's supposedly just like me but I met him once and he didn't seem to into anything. so lately i've been bored tomorrow I get to see spitalfield. and friday langworthy's playing club EKO. camp was fun. had the most fun at a camp ever met Jordan this guy that goes to graceland university in Iowa and he was so awesome we played the talent show and that's what we had talent (sarcastic) we did pretty well for not much practice. well I'm thinking gonna get going. Current Mood: curious
|Sunday, July 4th, 2004|
|Emo+Gothic = Emothic i'm so sweet a times
TOday was a boring sunday. I sat through another boring church yep I'm goin to hell. I don't know why but I just don't like it anymore. but anyway after that I went to meijer and got some shoes. the shoes nick wanted to steal only the black and white ones. then we went to some stupid family thing and that was stupid cuz it was hot and I hated it. It wasn't the family that knows who you are. I don't know I didn't know many of them but they all knew me but I guess now I'm pulling away from my family too. o well I don't like them anyway.
I'm emothic dave.
I have a problem about me and the girls that I like. I always screw something up. it's usually cuz I have a hard time being myself around girls or just people in general. I hate it that's how everything get's screwed up for me and I have trouble telling a girl how a feel ya know all that shit. I can't really picture myself with a girlfriend anyway I'm don't think I'd make a good boyfriend anyway. I'd prolly be one of the horrible ones. I don't try to find a girl to do a few times and be like o sorry. I actually look for ones that could work out. I never realize till it's to late. Happens alot in fact it just happend. O well I always lose in this game of life. Current Mood: depressed